Worst day so far

Okay, I have to say that my pregnancy has been quite easy thus far except for the anxiety thanks to my previous loss.  But what was with today? 

I didn't sleep well last night.  I thought since my body seemed to be adjusting to my new mattress it was time to try sleeping on a single pillow instead of 2.  Wrong choice.  My neck and shoulders were stiff this morning.  And I was awake by 5 am when my alarm was set for 5:30 so I could go in to work early for French class.  The sun is up way too early these days and it disturbs my sleep even with an eye mask on.  So, I start the day feeling sleep deprived.

I get around to eating breakfast, the same thing I eat every morning, and I can't finish my oatmeal.  I've been developing an aversion to the sweetness of the dried cranberries I put in there but I just couldn't finish.  Then I couldn't finish my almonds I eat for extra protein.  I couldn't finish my tea this morning.  My stomach just felt super full.  The rest of the day I had trouble eating.  I felt constantly full and couldn't finish anything I ate.  Supper?  That was a challenge but I forced myself to eat a sandwich and drink some V8. 

I also had major lower back pain and combined with the dark brown spotting I had last night and overnight I was a bit paranoid this was going to turn into something worse.  Then there was the awful 'fullness' in my pelvis that I felt every time I sat down.  Just uncomfortable.  Forget about concentrating on anything work related today.  I just felt wrong and off all day.

I know this isn't morning sickness but man, if morning sickness is way worse than this boy do I have sympathy for the women who suffer from it. 

I'm currently waiting a few minutes more for my cat's medication to kick in before I give her some canned food and I can head to bed. 

I'm green

And not with envy.  No, I felt a little green on the bus ride home from work.  Either I have a bug of some sort or this is pregnancy related.  And since it isn't getting worse this isn't a bug.  It is the other thing.  I thought I might have a couple more weeks before I had to deal with this.  It was exacerbated by a bus driver who was desperate to get us through light traffic, a woman with heavy perfume sitting next to me on the bus who wouldn't shut up, and me reading my blac.kberry. 

When I spoke with Nurse M on Tuesday she asked if I was feeling tired yet.  Nope.  She said I would soon.  I started feeling a little tired yesterday afternoon.  I felt it in my eyes.  But I didn't feel particularly tired at night.  I went to bed early but that didn't go so well since my cat decided to misbehave.  She was spinning around in the corner smelling the carpet looking like she was about to take a dump.  Sidenote: she's old and she has a major constipation problem.  She takes medication for it but she goes through a phase every few weeks where her bowels kind of let loose and she is unable to make it to the litter box before dumping huge terds all over, including in my bedroom.  At 11 pm I grabbed her and hoofed it down 2 flights of stairs and popped her into her litter.  No go.  My sister's cat will use the litter on command if you place him in there.  My cat?  I think she's too smart and stubborn for that.  lol  For the first time in the 8 years that I've had her I had to lock her out of my room overnight.  I wouldn't have been able to sleep with her in there because I was paranoid thinking she would pee or poop on my carpet.

Today, I started feeling tired around noon.  And my blood sugar has been off the past couple of days.  I'm supplementing with a few pretzels in the morning between my usual morning snack and lunch.  Then I have an afternoon snack.  I do this to manage my PCOS anyway.  And my boobs hurt like craaaazy.  Makes for a very unpleasant bus ride when your driver has a lead foot. 

I feel like I shouldn't be complaining.  This is so early and symptoms could get so much worse.  Plus I know so many women would just kill to be experiencing minor pregnancy symptoms.  So I feel badly for complaining.  I'm going to try to keep it at a minimum but I can't promise I'll never complain.  And yes, I'm very grateful for this pregnancy ... and I feel a little like I cheated because I somehow got lucky.