On the road again

Yep, I'm on the road for work again.  I got to see my family Monday and Tuesday and will see them late Friday before hitting the hay and then briefly in the morning before I fly out on Saturday. 

The secret is no longer a secret with my mom.  So much for my clever 'reveal' plan.  On Tuesday we were discussing my sister's likely 2nd c-section in a few weeks.  With just under a month to go their little guy is measuring 8 pounds and is on track to hit 9.  My sister was unable to deliver my niece vaginally and she was just over 7 pounds.  Her doctor said my sister just isn't built the right way as I had suspected.  I saw a program or tv news item about this and the misconception about wide hips = easy birth.  One has nothing to do with the other as it is the pelvic something or other (I can't remember) which determines it, not the width of one's hips.  Anyway, I told my mom not to freak but that if I had a choice I was going to go with a midwife rather than an OB since it is covered and they have admitting privileges at the local hospitals.  She looked at me and said "you aren't pregnant, are you?"  Serious deer in the headlights moment from me.  But I couldn't lie.  I told her I was.  She was excited and said "that's exciting" 2 or 3 times. 

I then told her it isn't so exciting that I won't be coming home for Christmas this year as I'll be full term and I won't be able to fly.  I said everyone will be welcome to come to my place this year instead.  I told my mom that I doubt my sister and BIL will want to come because the in-laws will want to spend time with the new baby so that if they don't come, that's fine.  My mom seemed open to the idea, which is great because I'd really like to have her around before the birth and certainly for a while after.  I can't imagine being full term and trying to make my way around the city, to work, to the bus in the middle of an ice storm or a major blizzard.  What about basic grocery shopping?  I'll still have to eat at 9 months and I can't let a snow storm stop me from eating. 

I did tell her not to tell anyone else and she promised not to.  But we'll see.  I told her the reason I don't want anyone to know is two-fold:  (1) I'm not yet 8 weeks, and (2) I want my sister to finish her pregnancy first.  I did feel some relief after telling her especially because I wasn't feeling well Tuesday after getting up at 4 am, flying, being dehydrated from flying, not getting to stretch out on the couches at their place most of the day because the house is full with my sister, BIL and niece there for the rest of the week until renos on their house are complete, Monday cramping, and sleeping on the couch (which strangely is more comfortable than the spare bed).  And then Tuesday afternoon I had spotting.  It wasn't much but it started out pink and quickly turned brown.  It went on for a few hours and there was a little bit every time I had to go to the bathroom but nothing on a liner.  That really freaked me out.  I was glad to be able to tell my mom so I could voice my fear and anxiety in person rather than hanging on to it until I could fire up a computer and go online to do it.  This was much better.  But it doesn't prevent me from feeling anxious over the spotting and whether it means anything.  I don't get another ultrasound for quite a while and it worries me that I won't get any confirmation for weeks.

I've been dealing with pregnancy rhinitis and pregnancy headaches too.  Lovely.  I feel like I've got a mild level cold along with annoying allergy issues.  The headache comes and goes and it just depends on the day.  And since it is hormonal there is nothing I can do.  I hate hormonal headaches because NOTHING helps.  I just have to wait them out.  Haha!  Just like the pregnancy acne I seem to be experiencing.  Joy of joys ...