Still not looking forward to Clo.mid but if it can give me a better chance of a BFP then I'm okay with it. Well, okay not entirely 'okay' with it because I still feel that my body should just do something normal instead of having to rely on drugs. But that might take a couple years and I just don't have the time for that, especially if I want a couple of children. So ... back to this cycle.
I was getting a little worried about my body's slow progression but things have started to move a bit. My ovaries, or should I say the right one, are gearing up for something. I can feel the right one again this month. Totally dominant. I was anxious to get the blood work results and they've started to shift too:
- E2 = 874
- LH = 14.3
- P4 = 1.52
Oh yes, I'm absolutely convinced this cycle is going to be a bust but I can't help but hope that maybe, just maybe, I'll have a good egg, the right sperm will get in there and we'll get a perfect BFP. I'm allowed to dream just a little, right? But I do have to say that pretty much giving up on this cycle has made for a less stressful week. Treating it like it isn't going to work, not planning on temping or testing is really bringing my stress levels down. So is focusing on my Clo.mid appointment with Dr. V. I'm just focusing on cycle #5. Ignore #4 ... ignore it ... it's an attention seeker so just ignore it ...