Tuesday, March 29, 2011

12dpIUI, 11dpo and a BFN

Yep, nothing but a stark white FRER.  *sigh*  I don't know if this means I'm completely out this month, i.e. that temp drop 8dpo was nothing but a random occurrence, or if there is something going on in there that just doesn't show up on a test yet.  Maybe the progesterone is playing with my mind and body this month. 

I just look at where this is headed and I just don't want to go there:
  • I've got 2 more tries with my donor then I need to find someone else.  I don't want anyone else.  I really like this donor.  But maybe he is a dud.  Maybe I have crappy eggs.  I don't know.
  • Clomid is looming in the future.  I'm going to have to add it after 2-3 more tries unmedicated.  I've heard awful things about side effects.  I don't want to go there either.
  • If this cycle doesn't work, I'll definitely not have a baby before I turn 38.  That makes me sad.  It also means that I'm unlikely to have 2 biological children unless my ovaries perform some miracle and I end up with twins or they behave like a 30-year old's ovaries when I'm 40.
I'm also kind of sad because that former co-worker of mine I ran into at the clinic might just have a BFP this month.  She got a faint line on Saturday on a FRER.  Her IUI was a couple days before mine.  If she got a line Saturday, I should have gotten one today if there was anything going on in there.   If it is her BFP then I'm happy for her and her partner but gee, I'm the one who had a m/c last month.  Why couldn't this one have worked?

I need to distract myself by getting to work.  Had my 1-year home inspection this morning and it was nice not to get out of bed at 6 am but sitting here by myself I can tell I need a distraction.

I'll probably test again in a couple days, then definitely on Saturday at 15dpo.  If I get another negative on Saturday I'll just stop the progesterone instead of waiting for a beta on Monday.  If it is going to be positive it is going to have to show up by Saturday.  But we all know how well a BFP on 15dpo worked for me last month.


  1. I did Clomid and yes not happy side effects but cheaper than Femara. Might be something to check into. I had hardly any side effects on Femara. And in the US, you can get one month free! Just something to check into for next time or talk to your doc about. Good luck!

  2. I've heard great things about Femara, especially the reduced side effects. My RE never even mentioned it, just Clomid and injectibles. Turns out Health Canada refuses to OK it because of the risk of birth defects. Aaaarrgh!

    I'm stuck with Clomid as the first line of offense and then injectibles. Oh well ...

  3. I hope that it may be just a bit early for you. It drives me crazy that there is little rhyme or reason throughout all of this because for every 2 stories saying one thing, another with the opposite.

    10dpiui here and not grand either so going in early for beta in the morning and just hoping to get the results before they close early. Praying things are either really low or high because in the middle, I could hurt someone for a medical "oops" they did by not giving me the prometrium I even inquired about.