As if this week weren't already bad enough my back up donor is not available. He had 8 vials available last week! I'm waiting to hear back if this is permanent or just temporary. The rep's e-mail made it sound temporary but I can't be sure until I get the direct word but I am feeling very frustrated. What is going on this week?
I already have limited choice by virtue of the fact that I'm CMV-, the same as 15% of the population. So, out of the <200 donors available in Canada through importation of donor sperm (because there are only 5 active Canadian donors) I'm only able to START from less than 30 candidates. Then I have to weed out based on physical characteristics such as hair and eye colour, height, body build, and skin colour. Then I have to weed out based on medical history. I refuse to introduce any female cancer genes into my family since we have none. Same goes for diabetes and alzheimer's. What I'm left with is a pretty small list to choose from.
I asked the company rep if they'd be getting more donors because I'm having a hard time finding someone who meets my criteria. She asked when the last time was that I checked the lists. February, before my unlimited access expired. They haven't added more than 5. And they've pulled some of the European ones for now because of Health Canada regulations over what the donors wrote in their long answer questionnaires. I don't understand why I see the same 40 guys on the lists every time I check. Are they really that popular that they keep donating? Or do they keep showing up for the money and no one really wants their sperm leaving all these donors taking up shelf space from other potential donors whose goods could be imported into Canada?
This isn't like choosing pasta sauce at the grocery store. It isn't a time to look at the shelf and say, "Hmmm, I don't know but why don't we just pick something because I'm feeling adventurous."
This is ridiculous.